smashing pumpkins bullet with butterfly wings lyrics analysis

The world is a vampire, sent to drain
Secret destroyers, hold you up to the flames
And what do I get, for my pain
Betrayed desires, and a piece of the game
you eat animals or they eat you. once you die the dirt dissolves your face. you are a vampire. the earth is a vampire. the sun may or may not be a vampire. we dont know. molecules in your body do things we are not aware of. viruses. bacteria. yeasts. they become mitochondria and chlorophyl and blood cells. they all feed on each other.all sorts of hormones and other mess everywhere. And what do you get for existing? Not what you want certainly, because by the time you figure it out, youre dead. while youre alive, your true wants are never truly fulfilled or are hidden from you by your culture in the name of innovation and progress. but you do get to live. you get a piece however small or large it may be. a piece of broccoli or texas stake. roll the dice mother fucker. play the game.
Even though I know

I suppose I'll show
All my cool and cold
Like old Job

playing the game of life. eat or be eaten. fight or get beat down. better play it cool if you want to keep on living.

Despite all my rage
I am still just a rat in a cage
Despite all my rage
I am still just a rat in a cage

i am angry that i have to eat other living things to survive. animals. plants. why is there hunger? i will never escape my hunger. i wont be free until i die.

Then someone will say
What is lost can never be saved

once you die thats it. your face melts in the hole youre buried along with all of your memories, emotions and whatever other pussy shit you thought was cool.

Now I'm naked
Nothing but an animal
But can you fake it
For just one more show
And what do you want
I want to change
And what have you got
When you feel the same

oh wow i realized i am a hairless ape. everybody told me i was special. shit. better pretend im special so i dont get run outta town like frankenstein. but i just want to eat light and air! why do i constantly have to ingest carbon in various forms? why do i just take? my shit just goes in the river and fucks things up. even my turds do wrong. oh right, im a fucking hairless ape evolving into innovations and progress. well shit then.

[Middle Eight]
Tell me I'm the only one
Tell me there's no other one
Jesus was an only son yeah
Tell me I'm the chosen one
Jesus was an only son, for you

fuck “billy”. this is the greatest song ever written. we all write it and sing it every day. all things alive do and have for as long as there have been alive things. theres your jesus reference. eternal. me me me. im special. people will remember me right? jesus was special, theres hope for us all! what hope you freak!? youre one of the best “managers” on earth right now. look at all youre managing to do! your body temperature for example. congratulations on that 98 degrees wow! be proud.

And I still believe that I can not be saved

well you can believe whatever you want. we all can. but yea, youre right. one day this planet will be bits of dingleberried rabbit turd and ash landing on other planets with the gentle waft of a sweaty smelly queen latifa queef.
Thanks for this song nonetheless. much love.

optogenetics

look at what NIH funds

from MIT page

Three MIT faculty members have been awarded National Institutes of Health (NIH) grants designed to promote innovative biomedical research.

Tye, who is receiving a New Innovator Award, plans to study the obesity epidemic from the source of the problem: the compulsive consumption of unhealthy foods, such as those high in sugar. To develop a potential therapy to prevent craving from leading to compulsive behavior, she plans to use calcium imaging and electrophysiological recording data to identify the neural signature of craving. Once this neural signature of a craving state is identified, she plans to prevent the switch from craving to compulsion by transiently inhibiting the critical circuit elements using optogenetic manipulations. This research could lead to the identification of novel targets and new paradigms for obesity treatment that involve noninvasive strategies for neural manipulation such as focal ultrasound or transcranial magnetic stimulation. 

the source of the problem is compulsion? or the availability of bad food? if this is supposed to make you stop eating sugar, why not just stop making sugar? no? so this is where we are going? hmmmm? once you get/make something (sugar) you dont want to go back to not make it.(sugar cartels make bank!) once you get a grant, you dont want to lose it. (researcher fight!) once you make a government institution, you dont want to end it. (department of eggplant security) like when porsche made 911 with engine over back axle.do they just keep building around a bad design until its good? 

yes? bc thats what we do and thats how we think. we love problems, we love to get problems, and then work our way from the problem to a solution. gives us something to do. however, you know how you cant control an emotion really, just have to look at it from a creator standpoint until it subsides and you can be rational about your behavior? well, NIH?

http://web.mit.edu/newsoffice/2013/three-from-mit-win-nih-grants-0930.html